This is my brutal honesty. I’ve been home for a little over a week. Throughout rehab, I thought I was in front of this injury. A couple nights ago, I had the first breakdown since the incident and I’m still fighting inside. I started to process everything at once, and god it’s the worst rabbit hole I’ve ever known. You crawl across the ground on your hands and knees in tears trying to shake pain, the loneliness rips away inside of you blaming yourself for pushing away those you’ve loved, and trying to understand why you are alive from it all.
This is the day after that restless night. @fishy_40_hands and I got straight to work on rigging an anchored system for me to do a multitude of workouts, and then hangboarding, and fighting the f*ck back. Each morning I still feel pain. But we are beating it.
As I would bike to work, I would listen to this song as I stared at the mountains in front of me every morning. Now I have to climb this mountain - and I can see the damn summit.
@fishy_40_hands , I love you brother.